been a few days since i update my blog. finally... i finished watching devil beside you le...=x the show is super super nice!! ah meng is so shuai!! lol..
ah meng and xiao yue been through so much to get together. Mountains of problems come one after another, and they had been strong to face them together till the end. But afterall, its just a drama... Looking at ah meng and xiao yue make me think of me and him. We're like having an "underground" relationship. Everybody around us know we are together except our family. Why is this so? At times, i wish to have the blessing from my parents of this relationship. At times i wish to tell my parents... hey your little girl has grown up... she's seeing a guy now, learning to be more independent and knowing to care about others. But... there's always a fear inside of me. afraid of being objected, just because we're both from a different race. We've been together for 2 and a half years.. I felt sad when i have to say that im with my friends when i am out with him instead. I felt sad when i told my parents i am alone at home when he's just beside. I felt sad i told my parents i will be alright to be alone at home when they were abroad. But in actual fact he came over to accompany me. How i wish to tell them not to worry because there will be someone to take care and accompany me.... Come to think of it...all these while, i never been to his house nor seen his parents. I don't know why and i don't ask much too. Is he feeling the same way as i do? or, there are some other stuff in his mind? When are these things going to stop? When will everything be disclosed? so that i live my day without guilt keeping things from my parents...?
bi jing xiang ai bu zhi shi liang ge ren de shi.... hai.....
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